I think a lot about my presence, how I am not so good at it. At the moment in the present. To land where I am and not only on the way to the next.
I’ve been blooding to Italy a few days before the trip. Worried in the body. It becomes vulnerable to travel when someone’s child is at home. You will remember my blows as old, I think. Would you remember a feeling if something happened.
When your own need is for a while to search. I can only get a rest in my own silence. The peace that I have not yet found. I’m just one day. In the taxi on the way to Arlanda lies the fog and meets the pink heaven. The airport, the place that is always awake, but where time is standing still at the same time, is like his own pretending that the same is the same.
I am an idiot who takes the risk of leaving my child, I think. But we also have to dare to live. And I want to teach you too. The importance of being friendly to himself and protecting his own.
I was sad when I had you the day before yesterday, a tear dropped and said that mother always comes back, even when she’s gone for a while. “I love your young man,” you said back and then your little hands on my cheeks. It’s good for me forever. And I said it was the nicest that someone ever told me.
You may have noticed that I was on the road because you were sleeping tonight, woke up and checked that I was over. The last time I couldn’t fall asleep. And I thought it would give me more to lie the last moment and just listen to your breath than falling asleep. Before I caught off and out.
Life is vulnerable and I always get scared. I tell me that Kevin Costner must have flown and survived, and many with him. I need this as a person and to be in my own bubble for a few days, but the mother in me has feelings of feelings of guilt and a gut feeling that is torn by the divorce and time apart. Tell me that everything will go well because it has to go well.
And I said that mother always comes back, even when she’s gone for a while. And I will. I love your endless grade, forever your mother and I felt that I had to write it before I lifted.
<3
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